Praise God with me. I have had 5 days in a row depression free with little fatigue or pain! I know that this won’t last forever, but I am thankful for this time of refreshing and peace. This time gives me the ability to be reminded of what God has done and will continue to do in and through me.
As I look back into my journals, I see that God has never left me. His great plan of changing me into the likeness of Christ will continue. I hope what He has revealed to me, will be encouraging to you. Here are more lessons I have learned.
- (An entry from 2006) I’ve let my pursuit of health come before God. Forgive me! God’s ultimate objective is to bring me to a state in which I please Him entirely and praise Him adequately, a state in which He is all in all to me. He allows my illness in order to detach my love from other things and attach it to Himself.
- (While in Romania I was asked to give a message at church. Here were the highlights).
I would like to share with you a very difficult time in my life where God taught me many lessons and changed me in many ways….. My body reacted to the stress and I underwent several operations and experienced severe fatigue and depression. At that time my worth was based on my performance – I was proud of my many talents and gifts and energy. Why would God take this all away from me? I was doing good works. God answered me, “You can still pray”, which has changed my prayers from simple to deep heart felt talks with God. “You must listen, be still and know I am God” , Ps 37:7- Be still and wait patiently for Him. “Rely only on Me”, Prov. 16:9 – A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs His steps. “Be content with who I made you to be and your current situation.”
- God has taught me much about weakness. Like common pottery, I am fragile and flawed and break easily. But God will use me if I allow Him to work through my weakness. My weakness causes me to depend on Him. God often attaches a major weakness to a major strength to keep me from going to fast and running ahead! My greatest life messages and effective ministry will come out of my deepest hurts. Sometimes God turns a strength into a weakness in order to use me even more. If I want God to bless me and use me, I must be willing to walk with a limp the rest of my life.
“To this end I labor, struggling with all His energy,
which so powerfully works in me!” Col. 1:29
- “Don’t look back” This has been one of the hardest things to do. Thinking about what I used to be able to do. My focus needs to be forward, my eyes on Him.
“Not that I have already obtained all this,
or have already been perfected, but I press on
to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me.
Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have laid hold of it.
But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and
straining toward what is ahead,
I press on toward the goal to win the prize
of God’s heavenly calling in Christ Jesus.”
GO AND ENCOURAGE SOMEONE!